Alyxandra Sarik

He is his father’s son Her mother’s daughter They are a one-skinned family Descended from a long line Of one-skins He has his father’s father’s hair And her mother’s eyes They all look alike I am my father’s son My mother’s daughter We are a three-skinned family Descended from a long line Of two-skins I have my father’s hair And my mother’s eyes We do not look alike We are a three-skinned family We are colored soup We are divided We are one We look adopted We look hereditary We are a three-skinned family We are our father’s sons Our mother’s daughters We descend from a long line of two-skins We have our father’s hair Our mother’s eyes We don’t look alike We are a three-skinned family

Release The thumping of beats fire licking the black. Night this is our release. Us women encircle Red hot coals  we cry out for the gods to hear us to guide us to purge us. We are the women who plant seeds for the future. We petition the gods to save us from the wrath. He is coming he has come. We are defiled. We weep O gods deliver us! or else our fate is sealed hence. Release The gods demand sacrifice! Life for life blood for our blood it is just it is good. Bring out the sacrifice! the creature to be slain. A young goat laid on the altar rip out the limbs decapitate the head pull out the organs. O gods here is our sacrifice! Blood is on our hands now you must bless us we have made our sacrifice. Release

In the beginning was black Then white exploded Some say God said “Let there be light” Others say Big Bang I don’t know any other Origin story But I know The relationship between Black and white Polar opposites Existing completely separate But never apart Yin and yang Dual nemeses To exist They must never mix First there was black Once before the birth of life Then white exploded Fading, until it returns to black And the cycle continues Until one swallows the other And they become nothing

The world is loud and noisy and I am not I hear you I hear all of you Am I heard Fight or flight There is only escape Escape and transcend all of your mindless chatter But remember There is beauty in the wind Wisdom found in the clouds If I could reach it If I could float to the stars And become Balance Because here it is too hot and cold Too dry and wet Too quiet and noisy Balance If I could raise my arms And levitate Transcend this world And float I am too heavy to float Nonetheless It is beautiful For the body To soak in the essence Of air and sound Balance

Why I write That is the question isn’t it? Why do rhymes and songs of verbs and the paintings of words consume my spirit? To be the sustenance of my soul and the beatings of my heart? As my tears cry in poetry And my fears sung through melody Can I tell you my story? Set your eyes upon the mountain tops And let your heart search the depths of the valleys In all the four corners of the earth and in all the cities What do you see? There is a girl hiding alone in darkness A boy whose self-identity deems worthless A woman running from her past A man fearing his future to not last Children uncared for People caught in the downpour Where is their voice? Crying out to be heard in the wilderness This is a broken generation We all need salvation To bind our hearts together as one And to hear our songs well sung We sing of love We sing of hope We sing of heartache, dreams, and fears We sing our prayers up and above And yet, do we even k...

Part One I wander throughout the earth Searching for my haven Where is safety? All that I see is as the first Nothing familiar to my sight Constantly running from the past Forever haunting He hunts for my soul The avenger of my sin’s worth Their screams echo Their hearts bleed As the light in their eyes fade Guilt weighs down on my heart For the life of my flesh Exists by their death Life for a life The cost I must pay twice Woe to who do not call me stranger Their fate will never flee from danger I am darkness You are light You cast your eyes upon my shadow Sought me out amidst the night I fled in fear Because your blood was pure Beautiful and innocent A star in the sky Let it be far from me that I should harm you So why do you draw near? Cast me away to the sea Let her fury swallow my vessel And me be forgotten from your memory Send your heart to seek after another I say I will be forever grateful Can you not hear? Let me be gone! And you will ...

Innocence… Enlighten my eyes Your memory haunts my soul Will you forget me forever? Is our separation an eternity? Innocence… Vileness consumes me Darkness blinds me I am screaming for this guilt to end Take my pain away… I need to see again You are all that’s left to save me Make haste! Before it is too late I am falling… Oblivion Wake me from inertia Hypnotize my gaze I desire your euphoria I need to look upon your face Before recognition escapes me forever And you remain a stranger Don’t say goodbye If I can see you one last time My dreams will finally end My soul rest in peace.

Morning light blazing into mine eyes A ray of hope to my sleepless nights My soul cascaded across the skies Naked before His light all too bright You and I had broke all ties But just to let you know, I am alright This is not a rhyme of love's cries But a song not to give up the fight I am through with saying byes Because life is in my sight Starting new. Starting over. No more lies. I am now reaching a new height Not letting go. Remaining strong. My heart tries Facing my fears. Erasing black with white My weakness dies I don't need you to hold me tight But if we walk together This is right

Possessed  You. You think I don't know you, But you are as wrong as hell. You, I know all too well. This is true you can tell. I don't need to speak the obvious, The hidden person beneath the mask is you. This is you. This is me.  We are one and the same. It has never been a game. Until one of us wanted change and it came. This is where I took you by surprise, For I can play, can you? Don't think you can stand against me long, This is how it's been all along. You alone, cannot sing this song. But then again, who will stand by your side? They say they are there for you. If they knew the truth, they would run. This is why those you love, you shun. And silently sing this song well sung. I am you. You are me. We stay together. -Your Demon Separated  You. You think you want me outta your life? We both know that's a lie. Sure I'll give some space to fly. But without me long, you die. This is our complicated relationship.  Face it....

I say I love truth, But all I am is lies. It has been this way from my youth, to hide what I am inside. Sometimes you look into my eyes, But all courage in me has died. From dawn until late dusk, Cloak myself i must. In this way there is safety, Lest someone come in and break me. My heart is fragile, My knees are weak, Unto me, Lord speak.

                                                                        I stumble through darkness, All I can see is black.  Obsidian smothers my sight's lack. My abode remains dim. Light - A distant memory to win. But it still hovers here, A beckon to draw my sight near. Nevertheless, fear holds captive my gaze - The knowledge of blindness to truth's blaze. It is more than I can bear. I don't think I can face my fear.

Voiceless A lone in a world, & silent, V oid of voice & speech intent. W anting to let out and say, B ut no thoughts to come what may. H aving tongue, B ut no heart to speak... L eaves one in a circumstance bleak. U nheard... A shadow with two or one word. B ut inwardly desperate still, T o scream out upon Calvary's hill. W here song and voice collide, T o unleash each soul and mind. W here Christ and Bride sing, A nd Heaven and Earth unite in cry, A ll to bring Glory to the King! S o when the times and seasons are full, A nd heart and mouth together pull, M ake way, o ye, universe! A new song shall begin through this verse.