Alyxandra Sarik

Why I write That is the question isn’t it? Why do rhymes and songs of verbs and the paintings of words consume my spirit? To be the sustenance of my soul and the beatings of my heart? As my tears cry in poetry And my fears sung through melody Can I tell you my story? Set your eyes upon the mountain tops And let your heart search the depths of the valleys In all the four corners of the earth and in all the cities What do you see? There is a girl hiding alone in darkness A boy whose self-identity deems worthless A woman running from her past A man fearing his future to not last Children uncared for People caught in the downpour Where is their voice? Crying out to be heard in the wilderness This is a broken generation We all need salvation To bind our hearts together as one And to hear our songs well sung We sing of love We sing of hope We sing of heartache, dreams, and fears We sing our prayers up and above And yet, do we even k...

Part One I wander throughout the earth Searching for my haven Where is safety? All that I see is as the first Nothing familiar to my sight Constantly running from the past Forever haunting He hunts for my soul The avenger of my sin’s worth Their screams echo Their hearts bleed As the light in their eyes fade Guilt weighs down on my heart For the life of my flesh Exists by their death Life for a life The cost I must pay twice Woe to who do not call me stranger Their fate will never flee from danger I am darkness You are light You cast your eyes upon my shadow Sought me out amidst the night I fled in fear Because your blood was pure Beautiful and innocent A star in the sky Let it be far from me that I should harm you So why do you draw near? Cast me away to the sea Let her fury swallow my vessel And me be forgotten from your memory Send your heart to seek after another I say I will be forever grateful Can you not hear? Let me be gone! And you will ...

Innocence… Enlighten my eyes Your memory haunts my soul Will you forget me forever? Is our separation an eternity? Innocence… Vileness consumes me Darkness blinds me I am screaming for this guilt to end Take my pain away… I need to see again You are all that’s left to save me Make haste! Before it is too late I am falling… Oblivion Wake me from inertia Hypnotize my gaze I desire your euphoria I need to look upon your face Before recognition escapes me forever And you remain a stranger Don’t say goodbye If I can see you one last time My dreams will finally end My soul rest in peace.

Morning light blazing into mine eyes A ray of hope to my sleepless nights My soul cascaded across the skies Naked before His light all too bright You and I had broke all ties But just to let you know, I am alright This is not a rhyme of love's cries But a song not to give up the fight I am through with saying byes Because life is in my sight Starting new. Starting over. No more lies. I am now reaching a new height Not letting go. Remaining strong. My heart tries Facing my fears. Erasing black with white My weakness dies I don't need you to hold me tight But if we walk together This is right

Possessed  You. You think I don't know you, But you are as wrong as hell. You, I know all too well. This is true you can tell. I don't need to speak the obvious, The hidden person beneath the mask is you. This is you. This is me.  We are one and the same. It has never been a game. Until one of us wanted change and it came. This is where I took you by surprise, For I can play, can you? Don't think you can stand against me long, This is how it's been all along. You alone, cannot sing this song. But then again, who will stand by your side? They say they are there for you. If they knew the truth, they would run. This is why those you love, you shun. And silently sing this song well sung. I am you. You are me. We stay together. -Your Demon Separated  You. You think you want me outta your life? We both know that's a lie. Sure I'll give some space to fly. But without me long, you die. This is our complicated relationship.  Face it....

I say I love truth, But all I am is lies. It has been this way from my youth, to hide what I am inside. Sometimes you look into my eyes, But all courage in me has died. From dawn until late dusk, Cloak myself i must. In this way there is safety, Lest someone come in and break me. My heart is fragile, My knees are weak, Unto me, Lord speak.

"You did what!" Brandon, my twelve-year old brother shouted. "Well, I didn't exactly say no, I just gave them the impression that I didn't really need it." "You are so crazy," he murmured, shaking his head in dismay, or more like devastation.  In his brain, I was probably the most stupidest, block-headed creature alive.  No one could compare. Yep, but it wasn't my fault that I lived in like total isolation, not much friends, home-schooled, and was controlled by the most controlling parents alive in the universe.  Never mind that I lived in a big city, with the downtown skyscrapers as my backyard view; I was just as better off as a cave man on a secluded, tiny island.  And I still had yet to figure out how my little brother seemed to live off the chain more than I could. It all started when I decided to let my tongue loose out of the blue moon.  I told Brandon how grandpa and dad had both offered to buy me one of those new Ipad things fo...