Alyxandra Sarik

Outlaw by Ted Dekker My rating: 5 of 5 stars Once again I am astonished by Ted Dekker. Outlaw has got to be one of his best works to date, as I really fell in love with this story. Enlaced with riveting danger, intriguing characters, and such a compelling message that once again opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at life, Outlaw is truly unique from all of Ted's other stories. Although still remaining true to his style and trademark of a story captivated by emotion, love and truths, Ted created something different this time. Many of his stories including "The Sanctuary" and many of his other masterpieces, usually have a "hero-saves-beloved-at-all-costs" plot and defeats the adversary. However, in the face of death and danger, the hero has to reject this natural instinct and instead, offer love and grace to the enemy. It is a story of intense forgiveness, but also a realization of one's identity to even make this possible. It calls ...

     So my last blog post was about making decisions, because we all go through times in our lives that require us to make some big time decisions.  Especially if they could alter our futures. Life is a story where we embark on a journey.  One foot in front of the other and having barely a clue where we are going.  Surrounded by elements and influencing factors beyond our control that try to toss and turn us like a ship at sea.  I could say that lately my future and purpose has been quite heavily laid on my mind, and I like to think that I know exactly what I want to do with my life, but honestly maybe its not about that.      As a person with dreams, goals, and ambitions, my future is very important to me.  I don't take it very well to think that maybe my life won't end up how I would want it to.  I don't like being not in control.  I naturally pursue freedom and independence to claim my own life and call it my own. ...

“It’s not hard to make decisions once you know what your values are.”        That struck a chord in my chest.   I am usually the type of person who is really indecisive.   Give me the choice in any situation and I’ll be torn between the crossroads.   Imagine my dilemma in this time of my life when decisions are at every corner!   When I am torn between choices, it is usually because I want to make sure I make the best choice, right?   But really, I think it is because I am afraid.   The fear of making decisions: it is not too uncommon actually.   I don’t want to choose wrong and screw everything up.   Then the consequences would obviously be on my head for my stupidity.   My reputation is at risk, people!   Oh, what a terrifying thought... sound familiar?      I hear a lot of good people say, “Everything I do is for others.”   I could say I am one of those people t...

The 13th Tribe by Robert Liparulo My rating: 5 of 5 stars I really enjoyed reading 13th Tribe. This past few months I have been having a very difficult time reading anything, including fiction (imagine that!). But thankfully, I got past that stage, and finally getting into the book, I found a ride worth taking! In my opinion, I thought the beginning was a little slow and hard to get into, but after that, I would have to say it was well worth it. It was thrilling, action-packed-at-the-edge-of-your-seat captivating, and thought-provoking. The characters were intimately deep and easy to connect with. I loved getting to know them. Nevaeh, although terribly mislead and ruthless, was one of my favorite characters. Her passionate spirit and determination to never give up was astounding, and yet she had her past, her demons, and her scars gnawing at her soul. The story was a great portrayal of forgiveness of sins and how it is freely given, never earned by our own works. I...

Why I write That is the question isn’t it? Why do rhymes and songs of verbs and the paintings of words consume my spirit? To be the sustenance of my soul and the beatings of my heart? As my tears cry in poetry And my fears sung through melody Can I tell you my story? Set your eyes upon the mountain tops And let your heart search the depths of the valleys In all the four corners of the earth and in all the cities What do you see? There is a girl hiding alone in darkness A boy whose self-identity deems worthless A woman running from her past A man fearing his future to not last Children uncared for People caught in the downpour Where is their voice? Crying out to be heard in the wilderness This is a broken generation We all need salvation To bind our hearts together as one And to hear our songs well sung We sing of love We sing of hope We sing of heartache, dreams, and fears We sing our prayers up and above And yet, do we even k...

Part One I wander throughout the earth Searching for my haven Where is safety? All that I see is as the first Nothing familiar to my sight Constantly running from the past Forever haunting He hunts for my soul The avenger of my sin’s worth Their screams echo Their hearts bleed As the light in their eyes fade Guilt weighs down on my heart For the life of my flesh Exists by their death Life for a life The cost I must pay twice Woe to who do not call me stranger Their fate will never flee from danger I am darkness You are light You cast your eyes upon my shadow Sought me out amidst the night I fled in fear Because your blood was pure Beautiful and innocent A star in the sky Let it be far from me that I should harm you So why do you draw near? Cast me away to the sea Let her fury swallow my vessel And me be forgotten from your memory Send your heart to seek after another I say I will be forever grateful Can you not hear? Let me be gone! And you will ...

Innocence… Enlighten my eyes Your memory haunts my soul Will you forget me forever? Is our separation an eternity? Innocence… Vileness consumes me Darkness blinds me I am screaming for this guilt to end Take my pain away… I need to see again You are all that’s left to save me Make haste! Before it is too late I am falling… Oblivion Wake me from inertia Hypnotize my gaze I desire your euphoria I need to look upon your face Before recognition escapes me forever And you remain a stranger Don’t say goodbye If I can see you one last time My dreams will finally end My soul rest in peace.

Morning light blazing into mine eyes A ray of hope to my sleepless nights My soul cascaded across the skies Naked before His light all too bright You and I had broke all ties But just to let you know, I am alright This is not a rhyme of love's cries But a song not to give up the fight I am through with saying byes Because life is in my sight Starting new. Starting over. No more lies. I am now reaching a new height Not letting go. Remaining strong. My heart tries Facing my fears. Erasing black with white My weakness dies I don't need you to hold me tight But if we walk together This is right

Possessed  You. You think I don't know you, But you are as wrong as hell. You, I know all too well. This is true you can tell. I don't need to speak the obvious, The hidden person beneath the mask is you. This is you. This is me.  We are one and the same. It has never been a game. Until one of us wanted change and it came. This is where I took you by surprise, For I can play, can you? Don't think you can stand against me long, This is how it's been all along. You alone, cannot sing this song. But then again, who will stand by your side? They say they are there for you. If they knew the truth, they would run. This is why those you love, you shun. And silently sing this song well sung. I am you. You are me. We stay together. -Your Demon Separated  You. You think you want me outta your life? We both know that's a lie. Sure I'll give some space to fly. But without me long, you die. This is our complicated relationship.  Face it....

I say I love truth, But all I am is lies. It has been this way from my youth, to hide what I am inside. Sometimes you look into my eyes, But all courage in me has died. From dawn until late dusk, Cloak myself i must. In this way there is safety, Lest someone come in and break me. My heart is fragile, My knees are weak, Unto me, Lord speak.